Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Becoming a housewife

What can I say?  I’m a Jack of all trades.  In the last 10 years, I’ve had four different careers.   I know what you’re thinking, “She doesn’t look old enough to have had four careers!”  Well, I can assure you that I’m 31 and it’s definitely possible, but I am flattered that you think I look so young.  I’ve been a specialty retail manager, aquatic director at a non-profit, senior shareholder services rep for a mutual fund company and most recently an esthetician.  Being a member of what I like to call the Oprah generation, I went back to school three years ago to follow my passion of all things skin and become an esthetician.  As an esthetician, I was certain that I’d heard my calling.  I still know that I would love, love, love for this to be where I stay but sometimes a higher power knows what’s best for us.  After working in the spa industry for a year, I’d made the transition into, what I thought was, a more professional medical setting: a laser center.  It was September 2010 and I was very excited knowing that I was taking a step closer to getting my career where I wanted it to be.  Unfortunately, I lost my job after almost three months.  I was devastated!   I went over the whole scenario in my head so many times.  What did I do wrong?  Could I have done anything differently?  To further explain, I had my annual lady doctor’s appointment on a Thursday afternoon and had to work the following day.  At this appointment, I found out that I had endometriosis and something was wrong with one of my ovaries.  They needed to do an ultrasound.  It could have been one of a few things; slight inflammation, a cyst or something more serious causing my ovary to be removed.  I’ve previously had procedures to remove cancerous cells, so I was extremely scared with this possible prognosis.  When I went to work on Friday, I told my boss and the assistant manager.  I wanted to give them the heads up about the possibility of needing time off.  My boss was comforting and actually sent me home for the day.  The next day, Saturday, I received a call from her notifying me of my termination.  I had been performing above standards and had actually talked to her about a promotion earlier in the week!  I was completely blindsided and felt it was all because of my possible health issues.  How could someone do this to me?  Did she not even care?  To this day, I wonder how she lives with herself.   I’d never been fired, laid off or terminated in my life.   My family and friends were very supportive and although I was not terminated due to merit issues, I couldn’t help but feel like a failure. 
At the time, it was impossible to see the silver lining.  The economy sucked and I was finding it impossible to find a new job.  I’d just gotten married, was my husband going to resent me for not pulling my weight?  What was the purpose of this happening to me?  Why did I deserve this?  In about two months, I would find my answer.  A month later, the ultrasound proved I have polycystic ovarian syndrome.  Combined with the endometriosis, it could be hard to conceive.  I was just relieved that I would be able to!  That two months later that I referred to earlier, that is almost exactly when we found out that we were expecting our first child.  What a miracle!  We were shocked.  I was now entering official housewife status, isn’t that what all girls want….

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